I just want your faithfulness ❧

2012-02-27T14:32:00.003+08:00

Before I was trying to control the situation, Now the situation is controlling me.

Hi my dead blog. I'm back. Off day finally ? I'll still update photos in facebook but not here *Too lazy* I'm so late. It's now 2012 already. A beginning of a new year. No matter this year will turn good or bad, I still hope in the end everything will still remain the same. (: It's gonna be me and darling's two years anniversary soon, So fast (!) We've been too busy in our career, No time for others stuff. March or April will be going back to thailand with mummy soon. Looking forward to see the environment there. Hope the environment there's good, wanted to stay there for some hair course & make up stuff. Shopping with Qian soon the upcoming week ! Byee <3

❧ I can love you till I can't. ❧

2011-11-07T00:59:00.001+08:00

Forever is not a word, Rather a place where two lovers go when true love takes them there.

I'm so tired, So damn fucking tired. I've been doing non-stop nowadays. I'm back home alone today without him. So long since we're apart. I changed. My life has also changed. I know it's because I simply put in to much feelings in this love and I know I've to accept this. So much guys out there that I never choose to change who am I but why him. Why? I don't understand either. Maybe this is why it makes me think he's special. I know I've really put too much feelings in this love that I became more and more sensitive. So much things happen, Maybe you think "Everything has past, I can get over with it". But seriously no. Memories don't change. My heart is always aching, crying. It's me who try harder enough to stop this. But at least I'm better now. I know no matter how hard I try not to think, My heart will still speak. I start to hate myself. I'm never like that in the past, My heart are always saying "I'm afraid to lose him, I don't want this to happen". My heart never tells me that in the past. Why? I know that I've to get ready if anything happens and accept it, But I also know that I'm always avoiding having this mindset. Stop avoiding, It's time to wake up Weiting! I can change anything just for him. It's just the matter of time. Sometimes things are mean to be this way, When you finally changed, He's gone. Because he doesn't have the patient to wait. I always tell him, "If you found a girl that you think it suits you more, Go ahead. I'm afraid that you don't have the patient to wait for me to change." I don't want a bad ending. But I know that wasn't speak from the bottom of my heart. I want to be back to the Weiting that used to be always independent. I'm never independent any more. I apologize, I'm sorry. I always repeat my mistake, I always make your day bad. I'm not good enough for you. But I promise myself to always try harder in this relationship. I'll try harder and harder until one day you give up on me. I hope my love for you will stop moving, I'm so afraid that I cannot take it..

❧ Love never claims, it ever gives. ❧

2011-11-03T21:16:00.001+08:00

In family life, love is the oil that eases friction, the cement that birds closer together,
And the music that brings harmony.

Hi my blog, I'm back to here again. Again, I've so much things to say. By the way, I'll update the sensitive skin product next time round when I'm totally free. Sometimes, I'm so upset that I wish the computer is right in front of me so that I can type all the unhappy things out and blast the music loudly in my world. Even though I'm satisfied with my happy life now, But sometimes shits still happen. I realize I've changed so much by comparing with the past me. In the past, If I want something, I'll get it. I'll do it. I'll snatch it. I'll compare it. And if I want it this way, I'll stay this way, Nothing change. And I won't change for somebody. I won't sacrifice for them. If my decision is this way, It will never change. I'll be out any time if my phone rings. So called together-ness? But now, It's really different. It's difficult, It's mature. It's hard. I changed since I know him, For my better, My future. And I change it because I prefer this way now, I feel that I'm more happy with it. I do more things just to make them happy. Sometimes I'm wonder why they don't get satisfies with all the things I did and they don't seem to appreciate. In the past if I'm stressed, I'll definitely be out to club or somewhere to drink with my babes. I know it's better this way. But now? I can't do anything. I don't even know what I can do? And I don't like the life out drinking any more. I only have him to pamper, care and concern. Sometimes, It's always self comfort. I'll always tell myself, Life is always up and down. Happy or unhappy, Good or bad, Gain or lost. Right? The only thing I do it to bath when I cry, Smile like nothing happen. Pray for a better tomorrow.. Old friends said that I changed a lot. Not as childish as the past. I agreed with that too. Haha! Shall stop here. Update again when I'm free. Happy 1year6months with darling. I love you <3 & 1029 <3.

❧ The less you have, the more you value it. ❧

2011-10-12T01:41:00.002+08:00

People take different roads seeking fulfilment and happiness.
Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost.

Hi world. I'm back again. Happy sweet seventeen to me! Look at the picture above. Smiling so happily with a kiss from darling. Daddy, Brother and me was totally crazy shouting around. I guess this year is my happiest birthday of all. My biggest cake with "Ong Wei Ting" written there, Get to meet my old buddies? My families and my friends around.. If grandma wants to go, I hope that she'll be there that day too. Well, Grandma just discharged from hospital and hope she get well soon, love you <3 Always pray that she'll always be as young as before healthy. So much to say.. I'm like lost. Don't know where to start from. Haha! I'm so deeply in love with my life now. Even though sometimes life feels like shit and get really stressed up with so much things going on. But I know after a little endure, Everything will be okay. I feel like I'm so different from the past me. In the past, When people start to talk about me, I admit. I cared a lot and I get angry. But now, look? I don't even give a shit about it. Lol, Because you're nothing but a mouth spouting nonsense. Who cares? My dear friend, You don't need to bother what people talk about you and how people judge you. If you believe and you know you're not, they can never hurt your feelings. Alright, I don't have much things to type right now as my brain is not working well. It's 1:37AM now and I'm still awake with darling and brother. I'm gonna update my next post of pictures of face product that works for sensitive skin. I'm lazy to upload my birthday photos. Facebook to see them. Bye, Good luck all.

❧ Loving ❧

2011-09-26T17:15:00.003+08:00

If you're different, embrace it. After all, that's what makes you original.

Glad i got the mood to be back here again. (: 1more week to my birthday. Hope to have the happiest 17th birthday this year in 2011. I think all my wishes has came through...? Are you asking me, "what are your wishes?" Like....? My mum came back? My brother & Grandma pamper me more? A happy healthy family? A faithful loving partner? Yep, All my wishes came true. I'm the happiest girl in the world now. Hehez, Happy 1years4months in advance to darling here first. I know i'm always late. I think i should stop posting loving story with darling, I just love him. HAHA ;P Lost long friends always ask, How're you? Doing good? Yeah, I'm doing great. I hope you guys are doing great as well. I fucking miss studying in secondary school. I miss 4T9! ): I wish time could turn back again to let me feel the fun. All of us has grown up, We've our own things to do, We've our own life to lead, We were never that close. But by gathering once a year, Feels really good. I always pray for all the people that use to be around me to lead a healthy life. Uh huh? Oh yah, Recently, There's a story of two bodies of a dead woman and a young boy were found floating in Bedok Reservoir, According to the news, They were wearing red tops, their fingernails were also painted red. And even tie their hands together with a red string. I guess Chinese should know what does these things mean. I just feel upset for her and her son, I think I can understand that kind of feelings. But everything is just a waste. I guess she must be feeling really down, And doesn't know what's her next step. Rest in peace, God bless you. I always ask myself, When will i be dead? But who knows? Time ups, You've to go. Right? I've been through a lot, I know that this world is not easy. Even though i don't know when I'm going to the another world, I just want to appreciate things that are around me. Even if this blog is so dead that no one is reading it, I'll still be back to blog. I want my life to be written here forever, Yeah? (: If you're feeling lonely, unhappy, vexed, depression? Be out to enjoy with your friends, Forget about the past. You must know that by thinking it, get you no where. Why not let go if you know things won't be the same any more? If you try letting go, You'll feel better when time passes by, There's no point going the wrong way. Your mother born you to be in this world, Be grateful. Bye (: <3

My heart is ever at your service {:

2011-09-07T16:56:00.007+08:00

You know my name, But not my story.

Haven't been posting for awhile ! , Sorry to leave my blog dying for like almost 1month, Sorry to say, I'm lazy. Hahahz! Anyway, Should be noone visiting anymore? Hehehz. Time really flies, Very super duper extrmely fast. Happy 1year3month to darling. We've been through a lot. So much that all the story are written in our heart. Sometimes shits happen, Just how the way we should handle it. Although we had tiffs and unhappy things about each other, I know its just part and parcel of knowing each other more better. We'll never know when or where we would end up in the end. I'll cherish every moment being with you. Thanks for teaching me so much things in life. Each picture taken together will always represent something to me. Aw, I misssed last year, Going out with my babes to sheesha, Beach party, Clubs, Pubs, Drinking session at different location. Where ever you guys are, I would still miss you guys sometimes. (: I miss my long black hair!! Darling promise to dye and highlight my hair soon. <3 I miss the innocent weiting few years back, I miss weiting going through those fucked up relationship, Being dump, Being stupid, Being heart broken. I miss them. Everything has changed. They'll never be the same, But remember, I'm always here.! :D Happy belated birthday to Darling's mum and Sze qiang, Gonna be Sze long and my birthday real soon ! ~ After Celebrating so many peeps birthday's. Finally mine is coming ! Started my course at Tanjong Pagar, Gonna really put in lots of effort learning. Don't need to waste 2years in ite, But have to spend a big amount of money learning there. Went out for dinner with Grandma and brother just now. I love herrrr, Grandma's totally different now. She pamper me a lot :D Alright, Gonna doll up soon. Ready for movies with bb. Bye !

ℒℴvℯ yℴu

2011-07-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

You have no idea how closely I wrapped myself around your heart.

First of all, Happy 21Th Birthday to darling. And it's our 1year1month being together already. Even though everything don't seem to be long. I know that you and me can be able to trust this stable relationship. No matter how much things that I've done for you, It doesn't matter at all. You being happy is more important. Isn't ? Argh, I'm so tired. I'm gonna be broke soon darling. HELP ! Bought a gold earring for grandma. She seem to be very happy about it. Hasn't reunion with family for such a long time. That kind of happiness, seems so sweet. Gonna be drinking tomorrow. Like once a year now? Never the past me anymore, Drinking and night life everyday was so lifeless. Rather start earning money now and have our own saving. Better than spending parents hard earn money. Urgh, Still have to wake up early for work tomorrow. Tiring ): Okay la. Just stop right here first. Always don't have the time to update pictures. Bye

2011-06-13T00:26:00.007+08:00

You never really stop loving someone. You just learn to try to live without them.

Alright, Today's my off day again. Like finally? My neck is aching real bad, Gonna rest soon. ): Every sec counts, Time flies, Earth turns, People change. Happy 1year anniversary to darling and me. My very first relationship that lasted this long and never once apart before. Never knew we can actually get this far, It's quite hard to describes why and what we go through so much. A very special guy to me that i once loved the most, He's just different from the guys out there. Ishhh, While typing he's right behind peeping. Dam, Spoiled the atmosphere man! Even though everything went smoothly for me now but sometimes i still think further away. Because we cannot see what will goes wrong in the future. We must be prepared. I must say, Sometimes i feel like if i open my mouth i'll start speaking nonsense. I'll start admitting things that no one should know. I only wish for everyone to know my secret, For everyone to know all the monster that tear within my insides, Crawling out wishing to escape. Maybe if they knew, they would understand, they would care. Those days, when i feel like i cant contain anything inside me, I sleep, I sleep so i wont say something that most will never fully comprehend. Alright, Shall stop talking about it. Happy 18th Birthday to my brother. Hope he likes the hair colour and his hairstyle. Shall go party with him and everyone else at the following weekend. Father day, Grandma & Darling's birthday is coming real soon. Omgggshhh. I'm gonna be broke soon. Haha, Alright. I'm tired. Cya

2011-06-09T21:29:00.009+08:00

谁会尝试去了解我的感受 , 又有谁尝试去了解过我的感受 ?

到底有谁能够了解我的感受 ? 我好困 . .

好像被困在一个黑黑的房间里 , 什么也看不见 . ):

The more things change the more they remain the same.

2011-04-24T23:22:00.005+08:00

相愛沒有那麼容易，每個人有他的脾氣。

Shit, I've not been updating. I don't have the time to do so! I don't even have the time to accompany darling and he doesn't have it too. Work and work and work, Money is the most important thing in the world now, You don't have money in your pocket. You don't have friends. Even how loud you speak, You're nothing. Have been really really busy with work. I'm so sorry readers. Maybe, no one is already visiting here. Ha, Wonder where to start from? Not use to it blogging now. ;/ Alright, First of all. Happy belated Birthday to Xenia Lian my bbg (!!) Wish you and Marcus Bon voyage here first. Remember to bring some clothes back for me. Hehe, Just kidding la. (: Gonna be me and darling first year soon. Super fast <3 Excited to go oversea at the end of the year (!!!!!) Chatting with brother and darling till i'm running out of topic to type here. Shittttt, Very happy that god is on my side all the time now. I've been feeling the happiness i wanted so much. It's a very different life from the past me to now. Aiya, Happy life laaa, All my little dreams came true. I miss all my girls. Including the few i used to pamper the most. Alright, Shall stop here. Brother is bragging me to cook supper for him. Shall not elaborate more. Bye <3

Fear is only as deep as the mind allows

2011-03-11T00:06:00.004+08:00

I don't have an attitude, I have a personality you can't handle.

Alright, I'm back here again. This time round I'm not gonna complain anything here. It only makes myself feel irritated. Everything's back to normal. 2 months more will be us being together for a year. That fast, yeah i agreed. We went through so much that even ten finger can't be count. We’ll fight and make up, And our relationship will grow stronger with each arguments and misunderstandings, we’ll patch things up and laugh about it in the future. It's us that suit us. Sometimes everything we said seems unreasonable but thinking back it's really funny. When things come smoothly, Automatic everything will be sweet. That kind of happiness is what i always wanted. And I've already had it. He's that kind of guy that's so hard to be handle. But this is him. That's why i loved about him. Him that pisses me off daily and yet I'm still finding myself crazy in love with him. Life's been really good for me. I'm happy to see some changes in myself. I'm really tired because sometimes i don't even know what i do that would actually infect his mood. From the beginning till now, I never like quarreling. Who does? Loving someone's hard, Really hard. Being loved is much better. Everything starts with the heart. You've to accept everything about him and the way he is before you learn to love him. Alright, shall not elaborate more. Good luck viewers, bye!

2011-03-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

Sometimes you have to let them go not because you suddenly stopped caring for them,

But to see if they care enough to come back.

Hi, I'm back here. There's always a problem when i get back here. Right? Complaining and so on. I don't know how to describe this feeling. It's weird and hurting. I'm really feeling really not right now, Should i go for a walk or something? I can even hold it on till now, I can't believe that i'm that strong. I'm really going mad having this problems. I doesn't want it this way. Maybe i'm just lack of comfort. I'm vexed, I felt frustrated. I really doesn't know how to describe this feelings. I'm not gonna say that my life's full of miserable because i know people out there are having worse. Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it's caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel they don't want to exist, like they want to just curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying "i dont want to exist" isnt saying "i want to go die" It's saying "I wish that, for the time being, i could go somewhere and not have to feel". I'm really out of words, How do i get rid of the hurting feeling? Sigh, Now finally i understand why people out there always commit suicide. It's all the same dam thing happening, why why why? Yeah yeah yeah, It's all my fault for being the way i'm. I SUCK , bye.

유 ♥ 웃 Just you and me

2011-02-10T00:28:00.008+08:00

When you think your life "sucks", Just think to yourself about how many people have it worse.

ANGBAO ANGBAO LAI LAI LAI, Haha! Haiyo, It's February now. Freaking fast. After CNY, it's Valentine day! I'm really going good this year. My so called Happiest year in 2011? Partly i must thank darling for being with me happily everyday. Haha, Everything goes on smoothly & happily, But definitely sometimes having tiff with darling was common. I never wanna think how long more we can go through or when we will stop/end. Because that only makes me feels more vex and get things worst. Obviously get me no where! I just want to cherish the time spending with you. That's all, Enough, Full stop. HAHAHA ! Went to Malaysia with Darling's family. Ate really much there, About 5-6 meal per day. HAHA, F-A-T ! Took so much photos and video but again i'm lazy to upload. Yeah, One picture will do ;P Ohyah! Few days back before going to Malaysia, Went to Golden Mile and bumped up my Mum there. Maybe it's fate that makes me bump up to her there. She keeps on hugging me and just smiled. I'm dam speechless, I hope she knows what exactly she's doing. I'm so used to it not having a mum already, So no hard feeling yeah. I'm just so disappointed that she's always irresponsible and broken promises. What to do? Or what can i do? She is still my Mum. Sometimes i'm just felt so heartache for so many things, No one knows. Because i always stay happy! Haha. As you can see, Almost each sentence of mine has a "HAHA" ;/ Sorry la, Not in purpose to make you get irritated. HAHA! ;/ People say 开心一天是一天，伤心一天是一天，何不天天开开心心的呢？Understand the meaning? Hm, Oh yah, I've changed my number. Get my number from me through whatever you can ;p Good luck to those who's reading. Bye all, I'm lazy to continue. God bless all 유 ♥ 웃

Tingx รักเธอ

2011-01-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

You have no idea how closely I wrapped myself around your heart.

Told ya i'm busy, ha. A new year and a great start of 2011, I really hope everything goes on smoothly. I've no one but my dearest darling and family to depend on now. Pray god that dad court's later will be fine. Without him, i'm already half dead. I've only left with darling by my side. I never believe friends will be always there for me. I'll never depend on them anymore (: My heart is frail. I'm not strong enough to handle everything myself. I need to overcome all the fears that i'm afraid of. It's really not easy to be in a relationship, Without trust, Connections you and your lover make, Not just between your bodies, But between your minds, Your hearts, And your souls, The more you will strengthen the fabric of your relationship, And the more real moments you will experience together. I think i'm really lucky to have him with me through thick and thin. He teaches me a lot, He never blames me when i'm in fault, He always pamper me. This relationship's so special. I never felt so special before, I just love the way he acts. But i'm afraid as well that i would broke down anytime if something goes wrong. I guess everybody does if they really loved them. I'm now in HairStylist course btw. I know everybody is wondering, why am i in Hair course while i don't want any other better course that my results's able to let me in. Aw, I'm interested in hair, So yeah. 2 years course. I can still go on study if i want to (: I'm working hard on it yeah, I need more models! About shoulder length? About half a year later, I might be in Thailand with baby to learn more skills. Chinese New Year's coming very soon. Excited? (: Will be going to Malaysia with his family. Will be back to upload a lot of photos. Hope you guys enjoyed your CNY. Byeee

He's the best gift i ever had.

2010-12-27T01:46:00.008+08:00

One of the best things in life is seeing a smile on a persons face and knowing that you put it there.

I know it has been a really long time since i've updated and probably nobody's reading now. Merry Xmas and Happy New year in advance first! Cause i might not have the time to update again. I've lots of pictures but lazy to update. Ha! N'lvl result is out. One A two B Three C, Still considering which course should i take. Life's awesome. Everything goes well, Hope my family & friends too. Well, You guys might ask how's my mum doing? Oh, well. The same shit happens again. History repeated. I'm speechless about her, I gave her the chances. After 10years, It's still the same old her. Sigh? Oh well, I'm not caring anymore, Without her. My life will still shine. It's our 7month in 4days soon, Time really flies. We were once strangers at first, and slowly the chemistry we felt that day onwards felt so real, so true. We're never the couple you know or see in the movies. At first, i thought love was just a mirage of the mind. Illusion, It's fake and impossible to find. But the day since i met you, i began to see that love is and exists in me. We're couple that doesn't nightlife outside like what others do. It's so seldom that our friends called us "Lifeless" hehe. We're the lonely couple that's always the two of us. Anw, Look at the picture on top. We both actually have a heavy eye bags, After using the concealer bought at "SASA" , It's gone ~ (: Alright, What shall i add in? hm, Have to thanks my Xeniabbg be there for me when i'm really need someone to talk to. Oh well, She said that I've "Xiao Jie Pi Qi" in the past. I guess true friends will of course tell you to change, But no. All she did was talking around. Oh well, I'll always be who i'm. I don't give a fuck to this kind of childish things anymore. Lol, Alright. Just wish everyone happy & health always including the one reading, Bye!

千言萬語

2010-11-29T01:27:00.004+08:00

I know it hurts right now, sweetheart, but that's how you know it's a relationship worth having.

Yesterday was a great night, plus me there were 8 people out together. Lazy to name all out but one of them is obviously my boyfriend! ^^v L4D & Counter strike. Haha ;/ Headed to dar's house late at 5am in the morning yeah. We just can't sleep, While lying on the bed together. I try to put my feelings into words, but it never works at first. Thing's get mixed up, Jumbled along the way. Start's to feel like i'm just going on and on about nothing. Constantly thinking but it won't reach my lips. Find no voice to speak them out. Continually & finally, I tell them all to him. I told him it was difficult, Regretting, Upset. But i find it comfortable after speaking so much, Enduring the tears that wanted to drop, With his hand touching my head hearing me speak with silence. I wanted him to lay back against me on his bed and talk for hours. I wanted to give him my trust, I wanted to listen to his words that sometimes have no place to go. I wanted to be propped up on his pillow and listen to stories that never thought they would be told outside of his head. I wanted to lose track of time while losing myself in his world, his emotions, his thoughts. I wanted the moon to watch over us and playfully cast the shadows of stars across his walls. I wanted it to feel like we didn't have enough time, yet feel content knowing we will have more nights ahead of us spent together..

The truth may hurt for a little while but a lie hurts forever.

2010-11-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

You may not love me today, tomorrow, or ever,

But I will love you until it kills me, and, even then, you'll be in my heart.

It's time to update! Sorry for the lack of blogging. Just came back home not long, Out with dar dar, Alson and Szeqiang for L4D yesterday. Anw, Happy Belated Birthday daddy! Went to Bugis few days back for pool session and ate dinner at iluma with bro and dad. Headed to Cityhall and met up all my peeps for ZOUK partyyy! It's been such a long time since i club. Wasn't a lot of people anyway, Was quite boring. Cab back to tampines at 11plus while others inside enjoying, Well. Because i'm not really interested in clubbing anymore and dar dar is more important to me. Heheez! Ohyah, There'll be another event going on soon, Not sure whether i'm selling, Tsk. See first yeah, Urgh. I'm so not use to it staying at home. I wish dar dar can stick with me foreverrr where ever i go <: Well well, Even though i'm back in facebook i'm still inactive yeah. Just kinda log in for fun. Alright, Will be back to update soon. Take care guys :D

Come live in my heart and pay no rent.

2010-11-16T15:19:00.005+08:00

Do everything with so much love in your heart

That you would never want to do it any other way

Oh hi humans, I'm back here again. Look up on the left hand side, My hottiepichyy, Actually miss going out with her often in the past and now she's back to her country. Ha, Alright. I'm skipping ahead a little since my last post but it seemed more necessary to get to the point? Uh! Singapore became so scary. So many slashing case going on now. Even "womens" get involved too. Kao, They even wanted to slash innocent kids that was just nice there. Oh come on? You call this gangster? Or you guys are just having green cards? Nonono. Real gangsters doesn't act this way. Argh, Bad to worst man.. Oh well, Finally I've the chance to update, Sometimes I'm just too lazy to do so. Met up Xenia lian lian & Siongyu few days back, Had a great chat with them, People do change from good to bad. So why bother, hor? :D Holiday's dam bored i swear! Went to Legend few days back too, I swear that pub was super bored -.- In order to ORD every NSmen must do the website quiz, And i actually did all the NFSs quiz for dar dar until i almost gone mad! HAHA. Dar dar's busy going back to camp to get his form all signed and ORD he goes! ^^ When you're in love with life nothing is to hard. Everything has freshness and reason, and all is as it's.

Oh yah! 21stNovember2010

ZOUK + PHUTURE Anyone interested?

If you're interested, Text me (81451625) I'll be there if my tickets are 10 and above.

IF ONLY YOU'RE INTERESTED, If not i won't entertain you. {:

Marriage is our last, best chance to grow up.

2010-11-06T18:14:00.004+08:00

It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life.

HOLIDAYYYYYY [!]

You
And you and you and you. It's always you little retard babyboy! <:

So many things on my mind now,

Wanna grab the camera i wanted so much

Wanna club and dance to death in the music of awesome

Wanna Smoke and drink like my business

Wanna go shopping and filled my arms with my favorites

Wanna be with NFS forever !!

Haha, Mad. I stop clubbing quited smoking and drinking. It's tempting, But that's a promise to myself. I'm just joking around. ;p Anw, Happy 5th anniversary dar dar. Life has been kinda bored recently, I hope everything will be done quickly soon. It's a toughest road ever.. Even thought life's bored recently, I still have him around me. Every night before turning in, I'm just upset. No one knows. Sometimes, Somethings are meant to be this way. Nothing can describe about it. It's like a fear, A bad dream that will be there forever. I just can't stop thinking about it. It hurts badly, Only him that held me in his arms tightly every night could make me sleep. I hope he's forever there for me. Aw, I miss my school mates badly, I'll meet you guys soon when i get my off day! :> Gonna doll up soon, Meeting darling and of course my beloved brother, His girlfriend, Dad and mum. Will today, be a good Saturday? hehez

They say every tear has it's reasons and every smile has it's own season.

2010-10-26T00:45:00.001+08:00

If I could give you one thing in life, I would give you the ability to see yourself through my eyes,
Only then would you realize how special you are to me...

Today's my off day again, Yeah. That's why i'm free here. Working was great, Met lots of different people out there. And of course learning products that was so complicated that i never knew i could do it. X.x Had a tiff with my dar dar the previous day yeah, Maybe by quarreling can helps our relationship to get better. Love is patient, Love is kind. It does not envy, It does not boast, It's not proud. It's not rude, It's not self-seeking, It's not easily angered, It keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, But rejoices with the truth. It always protects, Always trusts, Always hopes, Always perseveres.. The more connections you and your lover make, Not just between your bodies, But between your minds, Your hearts, And your souls, The more you will strengthen the fabric of your relationship, And the more real moments you will experience together. Agree? A guy that concerned about her and doesn't show it, A guy that entertains his girl when she's upset, A guy that's so mean towards his girl when he gets angry, A guy that's so different by doing things from other people, A guy that has so many points that i can never end by just using a full stop, I just find myself loving all his flaws and everything else in between. Just one day not seeing dar dar, I just misses him. And i'm not gonna tell you ;p Even though i'm now leading a great life, But I'm still stressed about so many things. Sometimes we need to let bygones be bygones, And restart a fresh new. Just like forgiving and forgetting. But, Some things are hard to do by just saying.. Good luck to me and you who's reading this as well. Bye

It's you and me up against the world.

2010-10-15T01:13:00.003+08:00

There will never be the perfect guy,
But there will be the guy you find yourself loving his flaws and everything else in between.

Kao, I apologize for not updating this blog. But yeah, Kinda busy right now. Don't even have the time to update my birthday celebration or anything else. But yeah friends, Thanks for those who concerned about me and bother giving me a call/text. I did not when MIA man, I just deactivate my Facebook because of some reasons. I don't think there's a need to play Facebook or anything else anymore, Just blog/plurk/twitter. Yeah, My life sounds boring? But it's okay. I've my boyfriend, Family and working full-time is enough! Haha. Working's so bored without boyfriend and friends around): But yeah, It's time to be independent! Talking to dear now, He's so retarded and cute. Is really hard to describe how am i feeling right now, But when you start to love someone deeply, You'll also afraid that they will leave you one day. Sometime's because it's not suitable or fate bought you this way. Maybe i can't proof anything to you, But deeply inside i know i'm true to myself. You can understand the facts of life. But facts of love are much different. To love someone or someone loves you. But when you both love each other you're in love with one another. First become friends and let it go. Then get serious and get together. Just make yourself known as a person not as someone you don't want to be known as. It's hard, I'm not afraid of going through the hardest path with you, It doesn't matter me actually. Useless you let go or give up. I believe in me and you, So yeah. After having you, My life had a big changed. Sometimes, When i'm angry with you, Your retard looks and cute faces make me really confuse whether i should be angry or happy. Haha! Easy way of saying, I just love the way you're and who you're. <:

Smile, It's the key that fits the lock of everybody's heart.

2010-10-04T12:34:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday to me ! <: , Will be back for updates . Wish me luck for my exams ! Bye

I won't love you forever, But i'll love you for a lifetime

2010-09-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

People ask me why it's so hard to trust people, And i ask them why is it so hard to keep a promise?

Yeah, I'm back. How many days more to exam and to my lovely 16? Hehehez <: 7more days. And my papers begin! I'm glad that at least i can managed to study everyday during this important period. Had a small tiff with dear last Saturday. Everything i do and changed might seems to be a small thing to you, But is something big to me. Every couples do quarrel, But every time they do so. You'll never know which side would give up first. Right? I'm mean give up but not giving in. I'm glad that I've talk things out with him through the whole night, Heart to heart face to face. Yeah, This's what i wanted. There's no use talking through the phone, You can't see the seriousness and the sincerely. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. Your partner always have things that he/she dislike about you, And things that he/she likes about. Just the matter of time for you or your partner to change, yeah? I'll find my way out to reach that something that you think it's impossible or too hard to do so. We''ll be the best couple ever, Right baby? <:

Oh yeah, Back to today's topic. Look at the picture above. Pitiful isn't ? What people are perhaps unaware of though is that the method of killing them is not done in a humane manner, But by torturing them to death by hanging, strangulation, And beatings with such objects as bricks, large rocks, heavy rod-like objects and electrocution. They do this for long periods of time in order to terrorize and cause great suffering to the animal. They die slowly and painful death. And now, Not surprisingly you would see a lot cases about dog abuse. This is so sick and the woman must be a real wimp. Fuck, I don't understand why their doing this to those dogs out there. No animal deserves to be treated in this inhuman manner! I'd like to see someone pull off such a insanely cruel act. He/she'll be made into a classic example of "eye for an eye", And instead of the whole world going blind, He/She world will be the only one left in darkness once inside. I'll sure sayang my dog if i've the chance to buy them in the future! <:

2010-09-22T21:05:00.000+08:00

Show me that you're worth fighting for.

Stressed aren't you baby? Yeah i know. Me as well dear. I'm stressed up too. Now we're here going through the hardest moment, And i want us to go through it together. Hang on will you? I need you to understand me more. Can you? Is our 4th month soon dear, love you :> 12more dayssssss, to what? hahaz! I want someone i can go to, Someone i can tell my secrets to. Someone who won't judge me for the mistake that I've made, for the mistakes i'll continue to make. I want someone who understands me. I want someone who hears, but not listens. I want someone who says goodnight to me, And prays to god they get the chances to say good morning again. I want someone who knows my quirks. I want someone who wipes my tears away. I want someone who needs me. I want someone who loves me too. And i want that someone to be you (: Life is hard sometimes, but there is always a reason for why it is...

2010-09-18T23:11:00.000+08:00

You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see,

But you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel.

Dam, Look! Saturday man? Yet i'm at home updating my blog. Haiya, Things always get cropped up on Saturday. Why sia? Yeah yeah yeah, Can't you see that I'm so pissed off now. -.- Forget it. Alright, Back to post. Watched Resident Evil AfterLife 3D with dear, It was quite nice actually, But i still prefer watching it without wearing the dam spec which hurts my eyes. It's really irritating if your head is actually smaller than the spec and you can't even fit in and keep on sliding down. If i continue watching for another hour, I think i'll be "PaJiao" Hahahaz! So people, My advice is to just watch without 3D. :D Well, I know that you guys are very very curious how does my boyfriend looks like and who's he? I shall update some photos with him next time. L4D & Pool session with boyf, Szeqiang and Marcus last night. While waiting for Marcus, Happy to see all my classmates wearing Baju Kurung ready for Hari Raya at Tampines, Okay, I believe I've improve a lot in my skills. But sadly i still lost to dear. Hahaz! I'll win you some day! :>

Look on the left picture, Taken on 2008. I preferred having this innocent face lor. Wish that i could be back to the past me. Doesn't really have to care what people say, And get frustrated for no reason. But i'm quite happy with my life now, Even though I've a lot of stress to handle. I've my boyfriend beside holding me on, My family and friends. Quite sometimes I've been bearing with dear promises. I hate people who hold the promises and broke it. That was my very first time hanging up your calls even though i know you doesn't like people hanging your calls. And my first time shouting at you on phone and saying every single words that i wanted to from my heart. Now i know it's not easy handling a relationship. There's so much up and down that both of us need to go through. And when men and women are able to respect and accept their differences then love has a chance to blossom. Don't you think so? If they doesn't respect and accept their differences, They can't communicate and start quarreling. If you really want us to be together as long as we could, What you need is to be able to accept the differences of us. Oh no, We did not quarrel or something. I'm just stating the facts :>

2010-09-14T18:33:00.000+08:00

Our anniversary is a time to look back at the good times and a time to look ahead to live our dreams together.

Kbox with boyfriend and his mum last night was awesome! Even though everything seems to be so rushing, We had fun at least. Ha, Dad was outside for days. Kinda miss him much. You've got to sing like you don't need money, You've got to love like you'll never get hurt, You've got to dance like nobody's watching. You've to come from the heart, If you want it to work. Understand the meaning of this? Well, Everything happened for a reason, The matter of this is whether it's explainable and acceptable by us. I'm thinking, What's the point of hating someone/body so much, When you're actually jumping yourself into his/her trap? It's not what happens to you, but how you react to it that matters. I'm lucky that i'm chosen to be born in this world "AND" in Singapore. I want to live my life to the fullest everyday. Without hating and doing things that makes me unhappy. Pointless, Don't you think so? Everything you now do is something you have chosen to do. Some people don't want to believe that. But if you're over age twenty-one, your life is what you're making of it. To change your life, you need to change your priorities.

Nah, Here's my baby photo on the left. Look so innocent isn't it ? Hey! Don't be rude. Don't laugh lah? ^^ Haha. I've got a stupid hair cut which looks so weird, A "TUTU" mouth and a pair of round eyes staring at you! I scan it using my printer through my old passport cause this photo was the very last one I've without any copies. Look on the right photo, A very big different uhrghh? I don't know. I think it was taken during 2009. October is cominggggggg very soon!! I'm unhappy because my N'lvl exam starts on OCT04 which's on my birthday itself )': And i'm happy because N'lvl is gonna end very soon. I'm left with 3papers, Fast isn't? Have you noticed that life, real honest to goodness life, with murders and catastrophes and fabulous inheritances, happens almost exclusively in the newspapers? Stomp especially. Sorry that i'm late, Happy 3rd anniversary dear :> I really want to tell you just how precious you are to me, My every thought of you is as loving as can be. My heart is totally filled with things that words alone can't say, This comes especially for you with all my love everyday. I'm not caring whether you're leaving me tomorrow, But i treasure every second with you around now.

Don’t judge a book by it’s cover, because the book might be thinking the same thing.
The only person you were meant to be is yourself, unless yourself is an other person.
Try not to loss your temper, or your temper will loss you.
Dieing is sad to some people, but to others it is just another way of life.
The only time you have wasted, is the time it toke you to read this.
The people who bully you, are just people you can bully back in another life.
Some people cry, others die, and some think it about it all, way to much.

Updating :>

2010-09-11T19:08:00.001+08:00

When I do something great, no one ever seems to remember,
But when I do something wrong, no one can ever seem to forget.

Hello friends :> This is my third time changing blog link. So sorry ): You don't have to link me, Cause i'm not linking anyone up. I took half day doing this dam skin. Ha, Not so sure whether it looks nice. But afterall i'm happy with it. Stressed up with everything right now. I know i've to concentrate in my studies now, Cause i'm currently having N'levels. English paper 1 & 2 was okay for me. Sigh, I was happy at first when my mum came back. Things doesn't turn up the way i wish to now. 16years of living, When can those miserable troubles stop bothering me? And when i'm having this kind of mood, I just hope that my loves one will be by my side knowing it and not making things worst. As simple as that? Thank you very much for those who bother msging me. Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, Not all scars show, not all wounds heal. Sometimes you can't always see, the pain someone feels. I just need more of your concern when i'm down, Can you do that? Remember readers, Friends come and go. But good ones always remembered in your heart. And you, I believe in karma. Act all you want now, "HO HA HO HA" with all your acts telling people how fierce you're. Hope that you'll never cross my limits. Okay big-gangster? (: